Introspection On Life

June 6, 2018

Three weeks ago my neighbor passed away unexpectedly. From all appearances, he was healthy and full of life. Given how close he was to my age, his passing and his family’s loss, struck me especially hard. For nearly two weeks, his car sitting idly on his lot became a daily reminder of how fleeting, fragile and precious life is. It also led to to question, “what am I am doing, and how am I living my best life?” “Am I going after what I want and making the most of my gifts and talents?” Honestly, I’ve not always done that. My path hasn’t ventured the way I thought it would, and as a parent, I have sacrificed (at times at my own personal expense) for what’s best for my family. In the end, a great job or career will not be my legacy, but how I invested and poured into my children will. If I look at my life through that lens, I have no regrets. On the flip side, who I am as an individual (apart from who I am as a wife or mother) is also important and deserves attention. So balance and purpose in all I do, is what I’m seeking. Are there areas that need improvement? Of course! Do I have it all figured out? Not at all, but I am seeking, learning, growing and living. Stagnation is not an option.

Do you find yourself in a similar position? How are you pursuing balance and purpose in life?



January 29, 2017

 “Be wise in the way you act toward outsiders; make the most of every opportunity.” Colossians ‭4:5‬ ‭NIV‬
This verse has been on my mind since last weekend, and all that has transpired between immigrants, refugees and even Native Americans (although they’re not actual outsiders) has reminded me that we, who claim to be “Christians,” have an obligation to be different. We have an obligation to really be pro-life and not just hold that stance towards the unborn. We have crisis going on all around the world and we cannot cower in fear. Wheather its food shortages, natural disasters, manmade disasters caused by leaders like Assad in Syria, or even ISIS, we need to be deliberate in our actions. If indeed we are believers of Jesus Christ, his actions were perfect examples of how we ought to act towards outsiders; he welcomed them, cared for them, healed them, and sent them on their way with a blessing. He also reminded us, ‘perfect love, casts out fear (1 John 4:18).’ It’s time for us to walk that out. 

As December 2015 progressed and finally came to a close, I caught myself repeatedly saying to myself, “going forward, I reserve the right to change my mind.”

In life, there will always be moments of pain followed by joy, and on it goes. It is ever changing and sometimes, we ought to stop, reexamine where we are, and decide if we are going to continue just so, or make shifts.

2015 brought our family many moments of just that; new job, car died, withdrew from some commitments, and most drastic, we left our home church.

Some might ask why I mention this, but it was home for the greater part of the past 5 years. It impacted us greatly. We grew, we learned so much, and we made lasting connections with incredible people. We also talked about it all the time, we invited friends and family, and if you just so happened to live out of state, we invited you to view via live stream, or listen to countless podcasts.

I admit, I already feel a sense of loss and nostalgia, but a shift happened; one not of my making, but one many never expected. There were months (too many) of lurking in discomfort, fueled by Hope for the home we loved. In the end, we felt it best to leave.

Again, some might ask why I share this… I do because of this: many may have and will experience church disappointment, and their default response may be to leave “the church” (especially if they are young in faith). I want to encourage you to seek God. His vision for you and “His Church,” is far greater than what has been interpreted by us humans.

I also share this because, 2015 was a big reminder of how important family is. In the end what comforted me most, and impacted our decision was God reminding us, He did not entrust us with a church, but he entrusted us with our family.

So, as 2016 begins I will continue to be lead by that… protect the non negotiable, such as family, but I reserve the right to examine the other areas as I move ahead.

A Happy New Year to you!

“For everything there is an appointed time, and an appropriate time for every activity on earth: A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to uproot what was planted; A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance. A time to throw
away stones, and a time to gather stones; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; A time to search, and a time to give something up as lost; a time to keep, and a time to throw away; A time to rip, and a time to sew; a time to keep silent, and a time to speak. A time to love, and a time to hate; a time for war, and a time for peace.”

‭‭Ecclesiastes‬ ‭3:1-8‬ ‭(NET)‬‬

Love and Kindness Campaign

November 8, 2012

Whoever coined the term ‘kill them with kindness,’ was onto something BIG and now more than ever, we need to put it into practice.  If we as a nation or even the world want to experience true change that will positively make an impact and reflect godly principles, love might just be the most effective way we can do it.

With all the political discourse going on and the churches’ influence on this election season, I was reminded of John 13:34-35.  Jesus commands us to love each other just as He loves us.  Somewhere along this election season, the tone turned into ‘love those who go to church or those who share your opinions.’  The result, a lot of good, well intentioned “Church people” came across as, self-righteous, melodramatic, unsympathetic and even hateful at times.

So, now that President Obama has been reelected, are we really doomed?  Have we as God’s people lost our good chance to make this a true nation under God?  I for one, as a Christian, a wife and a mother often caught myself asking, “am I missing something?”  “Am I so spiritually disobedient that I cannot willingly fall in line with the Republican agenda and vote for Romney?”

Yes, I want the sanctity of marriage between one man and one women to be upheld, and yes, I don’t condone abortion but are these positions enough to disregard a whole slew of positions and policies I do not agree with for the sake of faith and a godly position?

Lets just look at campaign funds, what would happen if we divided all the ridiculous amount of money spent in the 2012 campaigns and infused them into falling schools?  What would happen if those who professed to act in the name of ‘godly principles’ willing gave to the poor instead of campaigns?  Would the effect be so small that it’s enough to discount this idea?

I think not. Could it just be, we have not done it enough to see results?  Why is it almost “wishful thinking” to push these ideas as opposed to gay rights or abortion?

I think the world would be so much more receptive if we shelled out love, our time and acts of kindness rather than, rules in the form of godly views.  After all, if we are operating in godly principles, don’t they inadvertently impact everything else?

Let’s kill ungodly agenda’s with kindness.  Lets positively impact government, this nation and the world by loving those around us, our family, our friends, the clerk at the grocery store, that man by the curb begging for money and yes, even our acquaintances with opposing views.